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Thursday, May 17, 2001

Paulami



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Paulami staggered in.  Previously she had spent ten minutes trying to open the door. Now all she was capable of doing was collapsing……so she collapsed…..and passed off. Moments or eternity had passed….Paulami woke up to a terrible churning in her stomach……she tried to get up…. couldn't. Instead, a frothy blue fluid rose from her intestines….and forced its exit through her mouth. Surprisingly it has remnant momentum, it traveled a good four inches towards the ceiling before finally resting on Paulami’s face…..the more energetic parts of the fluid did things like dripping on the carpet or rolling down her neck…..the rest lay in melancholic disarray on her face.

Paulami was starved of reaction …..more over she had no time…the second bout of frothy blue fluid definitely had more vengeance ..it managed a remarkable seven inches before crash landing…ten more such bouts of various intensity …before her stock of the fluid apparently ran out. Only then could Paulami afford the luxury of a stabbing headache. For the first time in quite sometime Paulami realized that she had a head….it made her feel better…much much better. Awareness of her head activated her memory….her memory activated her vocal chords. She managed to say “damn it“. Paulami was feeling heavily let down….no one, no one at all had warned her that drinking life…or rather drinking life in gallons could reduce her to this…”damn it” she hoarsely whispered again. Then she passed off. A good few months witnessed  Paulami’s “damn it”s  and the spurting blue fluid. Sometimes she would be well enough to touch her head and shout in pain. Wasn't before January the Paulami could get up.


The blue liquid was a puker’s delight.  It had a happy knack of evaporating without a trace. Watching the frothy blue fluid miraculously disappear had been Paulami’s entertainment for months now. Today it occurred to her that it also meant ….no cleaning up jobs. Paulami deposited herself under the shower. Hours later she could feel her skin reacting to the gush of water…..a few weeks later she felt satisfied.

Only now did Paulami remember time- she then realized that she had no track of it. Switching on her comp she found out that it was 15th March 2003. Something struck her….it felt strange. Paulami took some time to react and adjust to her
(re)functioning long-term memory….Then all she managed to do was smile. Ten years ago on this very date, Jagdish had given her his farewell bar of chocolate.

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Emotions. What business do they have rearing their heads when one is just beginning to revisit existence?

Paulami’s eyes fell on the grocer’s number scribbled by the telephone. She then discovered that the instrument was as dead as gone.
Ten minutes later, Paulami walked past the surprised appt. guard and into the basking sun. Surprised at herself on locating the neighborhood grocer’s shop,  Paulami had just begun to feel good…. A college girl wearing a white apron propped herself plonk in front of Paulami.

“Mamn” we have come out with a fruit drink….mango flavor….designed to beat the heat out of the summer.  Absolutely refreshing. As a launching scheme we are giving a Rs. 2 discount….it’s called ‘Life’ and it absolutely lives up to its name…..”

“ I am not interested”.

Paulami bought two packets of ‘Wills’. However it was a halfhearted purchase. The fruit drink was making its presence felt in her mind. As she was going out……. “Madam, if you place a party order of more than five cartons today, then you get a free ticket to Timbuktu. Moreover, all the ‘Life’ you can consume out there comes absolutely free.”

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It was fiercely cold and windy in Timbuktu. Paulami spent the first couple of days simply cursing herself. She hadn’t drunk a drop of ‘Life’……it was simply too cold. Snuggling up inside all the clothes she could lay her hands on,  Paulami got tired on lying inside the solitary blanket the guest house afforded and gazing at posters of ‘Life’ pasted all over the room.

Next day….bothering to finish her breakfast, Paulami appeared at the mall….. It was deserted.

A solitary entity…..a young boy with a big mouth was collecting garbage….mostly empty packets of ‘Life’. Paulami approached. A polite enquiry revealed that the founding chairperson of ‘ Life.Inc.’ had died last night, and since Timbuktu’s existence owed every part of it to ‘Life’, the entire city had gone into mourning….for a year.

Upon reaching the guesthouse,Paulami noticed that the guesthouse was functioning as if nothing had happened. A flustered and puzzled Paulami approached the manager.

The manager was playing Solitaire with his wife. A bottle of upturned rose wine lay upon the carpet…..gradually emptying it’s contents onto some eager cockroaches.Paulami glared at the man..till her gaze troubled his aura enough for him to look up.

“I know your concern madam….you stay here as my guest. Just that years are unusually long out here….you have to cope up with that. The mourning does not effect this place…..” he paused and smiled…..”Freddie Mercury stayed here once……all he ever said was “the show must go on”.” he paused again…. Took a deep breath, “Freddie was the respected chairperson’s favorite musician.” Now his eyes grew misty. ”One day the ever respected chairperson was sitting here and sharing some cherry sandwiches with Freddie. Freddie looked at me and said  “the show must go on”…..respected chairperson sir then turned to me and said…..” mister Bingo, so be it”…”.By now the manager was blissfully sad and the cockroaches dead drunk.

Amazed at her calm self  Paulami walked back to her room.

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Some sleep. It almost threatened never to get over. Anyway, it was morning when Paulami woke up. Timbuktu had become colder and windier. Going out, the first thing Paulami noticed was a Para shoot swooping down. It blissfully flopped itself on the lawn. There was nothing but a bundle of newspapers attached.

Someone cleared his throat. Paulami jumped. She sighed in relief when she saw that the sound had originated from the manager.

“They are kind enough to weekly  para-drop newspapers. I wasn't sure how the brash new men in charge of ‘Life’ would treat this place. But they seem very concerned”. Paulami mustered up some mock optimism and inquired about tea…….the switching over to her realist best …..she picked up a newspaper and walked back to her room.

In a blatant challenge to boredom, she opened the business page
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The main headline on the business page was…….. a line declaring that Jagdish had acquired the world’s largest chocolate company.

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* This was not the intended   name of the story. Ever since it was written, my friends and I have been calling it Paulami….and thus it was nick named.